Monday, October 15, 2018
A little over two years ago, I posted on this platform while my life completely fell apart around me and I did so as though life was OK! My last post was informative and got views and shared information but it reflected nothing of what I was dealing with or going through at the time. I had just moved out of my marital home about a month before and was trying to process being a single mom and not losing my mind.
I was finally granted a divorce on August 30 of this year and although it feels like I have been single for 3 years or even more, the divorce signifies a level of freedom that I was not able to claim while still legally married...... Its been a long, sometimes crazy ride but I am still here and still whole, in spite of the brokenness that I have experienced. The objective of coming back to blogging is not to "tell my business" but to share my heart. To speak to some woman, some man, some boy, some girl who may need to hear what the other side of heartbreak looks like....and let me be clear, I was heartbroken.
I was heartbroken because I leaned so completely into another human being that I was almost lost before I realized that the other person had no support to give. It is OK that I leaned, it is OK that I trusted, it is OK that I loved......it is even OK that I lost and that my marriage failed because I learned many many things about myself and I received a great gift in my son and he has forever changed my life and my purpose. He's the reason why I have to do this and why I am back!
I am back and I am different. My motives are different: I write to heal, I write to share and to let others know that they are not alone. I write because its what I have always done when things are good and even more so when things are bad. I write because I have learned a lot and continue to learn.......and life is better because of this learning. I write because it gives purpose to the brokenness, purpose to the pain, purpose to the challenges and the stretching. I blog because its a quick way to get through to one or two or many who may need a quick shot in the arm or word of encouragement! I encourage because I have been encouraged and I know how much it helps me to wake up in the morning, to keep going when I feel like I can't.
Don't get me wrong - I still love all things fashion and shoes but sharing my lifestyle means I have to share where my life is right now! If you're here for the shoes and fashion, there will be posts about that, posts about my son, posts about hair, posts about weight, posts about the life and times of MamaSolesup!! I hope you will join me on this journey of growth and healing......but if not, that's fine too! This is really just me, sharing my gift and if I only ever help one person, that will be enough!
Now! Let's go! I am ready......Joy has many faces, freedom is one of them!